Bilateral Mastectomy

I had to look up the meaning, and when I messaged my friend to tell her that if she wanted me to document this journey that had been forced upon her, I’d be more than happy to do so. She said thanks, and a couple of weeks later reached out with an idea that came to fruition this past weekend.
Noni has been in Woman as Art before and done boudoir, but this was the first time she brought her whole family, and friends, and clippers, and scissors.
In fact it was the first time I’ve photographed anyone getting their head shaved before starting chemo.

The process was later something that she described as ‘therapeutic for all of us’ and accomplished something that she wanted – to be in control of some part of the process. She said, “None of this was anything we have control of. I love that this is one thing I can do on my own terms and not be “the victim”. I guess it just kind of feels like if I can do this on my own terms then I’m almost taking the control back in a way.”

She entered my studio a fighter and left even more so.

Something to hide behind.

I’ve always used my eating disorder to hide. It’s always been something I could use to hide from my own feelings and my own personality. I used it to ignore feelings and I let people’s comments on my body and my size be the only thing I based my worth on.

This photo session made me feel like I was breaking free of all of that. Like I was done hiding behind a physical body and was ready to be a real human that deserves validation regardless of her body. Like someone who deserved to let all of that go and love herself again for who she truly is and not the person she hides behind.

In the model’s own words.

My Whole World

Had I not created my whole world, I would certainly have died in other people’s.
-Anais Nin


Thanks to the beautiful new mom Alyssa for making two trips to the studio to make this profound statement on the beauty of motherhood possible.

As you are.

You are amazing as you are.
Stronger than you know.
More beautiful than you think.
Worthier than you believe.
More loved than you can ever imagine.
Passionate about making a difference.
Fiery when protecting those you love.
Learning. Growing. Not alone.
Warm. Giving. Generous.
Quirky. Sexy. Funny. Smart.
Flawed. Whole. Scared. Brave.
And so, so, so.much.more.

Be Strong. Be Confident. Be You. ~ Copyright: Tia Sparkles Singh, 2011.

Your Awesome, Innate Power.

“Women are powerful, and I see them stifle this every. single. day….  Life is short. Rise up and step back into your awesome, innate power. You are compassion and creative force and divine life itself. You are a Goddess.”  -Victoria Erickson

Scarred, Stretched, and Jiggling

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The model’s own words, “You’d be hard pressed to find even an inch of my body that isn’t scarred, stretched, or jiggling. But I AM BEAUTIFUL and no one can convince me otherwise. My body is all mine and it’s been through the wringer and now it’s more a work of art than its ever been.”

I’m Me in the Most Imperfect Way

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“I feel like I’m in love with myself. In no way shape or form am I perfect. But I’m me in the most imperfect way.”

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“I’ve looked at it 1,000 times. It shows me as a woman, and not as a girl. I can see maturity and it reminds me of all of the things that’s happened in my life, good and bad.”

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“I look like a different person than I used to be. And I am. But at first it sort of freaked me out, I was like wow! But the more I looked at it, the happier it made me. I realized I was exactly where I wanted to be.”

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“It may just look like a picture but it means more than that to me.”

The words are the model’s own.